It’s not so much that I’m running from my past. I just need a clean break. The drugs were taking their toll. I’m trying the church thing. High on Christ, isn’t that what they say. So far, I’m not feeling it. What I am feeling are the cold evenings. I’m not feeling the warmth of H filling my throbbing veins. I’m not feeling my lungs relax after deeply inhaling a potent smoke. I’m not feeling the heat of a naked woman, hours after she happened to snort beside me. But the trembling, the lost memories, the doubting myself. Something had to give. So now, I keep my nicotine close. I go to church each time the doors open. I pray for release, and I rub my aching veins.
April 3, 2012
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